I feel horrible! I feel Guilty, and I feel ashamed. I cut for the first time in 5 months, and I feel like I want to do it again. I have auditory hallucinations and the damn thing tricked me into cutting my wrist again! I shouldn't have done it. I need to go to the hospital but they turned me away. I can't tell people what is really happening because I am embarrassed and the voice won't allow me. I am terrified of myself and the voice. I want to die because I don't want it taking over me anymore. Why did the hospital turn me away! My psych is gone, my family doctor is gone. I have no where else to go.