i have a wonderful marriage with my wife, but i have disappointed her greatly with my financial choices and fear that the hurt i caused her is irreversible.
i don’t know why i did it. i did not think. i have a good job, a college degree and a family who very much loves me. my parents are still together.
we fell in love immediately after meeting 10 years ago and we truly do have a perfect relationship. we see each other eye-to-eye on almost everything. there is no effort. no major conflicts. we can't wait to be in each other's company and genuinely enjoy being with one another. in short, we just work.
there was simply no need to do what i did. it wasn't out of malice or out of intent to deceive. i am not that person. though, i have stopped cold turkey as of a month ago. that spiral turned me into a blithering irresponsible adult, a huge disappointment to her and my family, but i think it may be too late.
it breaks my heart to think about the things i did for the hurt that it causes my wife is potentially irreversible. i will never forgive myself for hurting her, for taking us for granted. it's a huge betrayal and the guilt is just too much to bear. i cry constantly because i know i hurt her and she doesn’t deserve it. she however deserves all the integrity in the world. she is brilliant, smart, driven, beautiful, honest, in every way and i don’t deserve to be with her.
i do not think life without her is worth living. i am inherently not a bad person but think i need mental help. i think i have failed. love like this occurs only once and i have simply failed it.
because of that, I am suicidal at the moment but i know I won't do anything. She loves me undeniably and i dont want to put yet another hurt on her.
Scummy. I'm just scummy. No other way to describe it.
i don’t know why i did it. i did not think. i have a good job, a college degree and a family who very much loves me. my parents are still together.
we fell in love immediately after meeting 10 years ago and we truly do have a perfect relationship. we see each other eye-to-eye on almost everything. there is no effort. no major conflicts. we can't wait to be in each other's company and genuinely enjoy being with one another. in short, we just work.
there was simply no need to do what i did. it wasn't out of malice or out of intent to deceive. i am not that person. though, i have stopped cold turkey as of a month ago. that spiral turned me into a blithering irresponsible adult, a huge disappointment to her and my family, but i think it may be too late.
it breaks my heart to think about the things i did for the hurt that it causes my wife is potentially irreversible. i will never forgive myself for hurting her, for taking us for granted. it's a huge betrayal and the guilt is just too much to bear. i cry constantly because i know i hurt her and she doesn’t deserve it. she however deserves all the integrity in the world. she is brilliant, smart, driven, beautiful, honest, in every way and i don’t deserve to be with her.
i do not think life without her is worth living. i am inherently not a bad person but think i need mental help. i think i have failed. love like this occurs only once and i have simply failed it.
because of that, I am suicidal at the moment but i know I won't do anything. She loves me undeniably and i dont want to put yet another hurt on her.
Scummy. I'm just scummy. No other way to describe it.