I'm short of breath again. It seems every month or every other month I have both asthma and nasal problems. Now I have congestion in my lungs and clogged sinuses. I don't need these symptoms right now. I've suffered with asthma since I was two, and from the hundreds of attacks I've had through the years, I'm left physically exhausted. Now I'm struggling, trying to get a new career off the ground, hit with bills left and right, medical expenses, et cetera. I'd love to quit this life, but there's a wall of pain between me and freedom. That's the only thing preventing me from doing it. I'm afraid of winding up crippled or worse. On the other hand, there are times where I'm so full of anger that I might lash out at somebody and do damage to someone else. I think the 2000s are really the worst time to be alive. All this technology isolates us even more. Despite the on line comradery, I'd rather be talking to people face to face. Between TV and the computer, it seems the hotshot university eggheads have successfully glued us in front of a box 10 + hours a day. Fuckin' nerds. The employment situation sucks. I'd rather be a student for the rest of my life than work for a godamn company. I'd rather feed off of society than have society feed off me.