I've just read the post "When You Feel You Can’t Go On Please Hold On", and the way I'm feeling - so angry, so lonely, so betrayed, so confused and in pain, so hurt and despairing, such a waste of space with absolutely no sign of a glimmer of light at the end of a black tunnel - the post, as touching as it is to have me in tears, hasn't altered my thinking that I'd be better off dead. I recently lost my partner whom I love very very much, to a work colleague who befriended us both and then took her away from me. He had not been working with me for very long, but quite quickly I trusted him and I saw him as a friend. I used to go out with him for a drink after work, and slowly but surely what I can see now is that he found out a lot about me, such as myself and my partner were going through a rocky patch, but, I hoped and prayed that we would work it out and certainly I believed we could and would. I actually introduced him to my now ex partner, and on a few occasions we'd sit and have a few drinks together. He told me that, as a friend, he would try and help us by talking to her about some issues we were having, and I stupidly trusted that this was his only intention. A couple of weeks back I went out one afternoon with this work colleague and my then partner turned up at te place we were having a drink. I felt as she looked so beautiful and had gone to such an effort to look nice that I'd quickly go home and have a shower then put on some cleaner clothes. She told me that I looked fine but I insisted that I leave for a short time and would be back soon. My work colleague told me that he would look after her while I went home. I was only gone for 30 minutes and when I returned, my work colleague said that as he was talking to my then partner, I should sit and have a drink elsewhere in the place. I stupidly STUPIDLY believed that he was trying to help. I stupidly STUPIDLY believed that I could trust him, and I never for one second thought that he would have feelings for her which he intended acting upon. I sat there on my own, with him popping up now and again just to say that everything was ok and that he was just talking with my partner about me. I sat there whilst my partner texted me to ask where I was, and to go over to here, and he kept coming over and telling me that everything was ok, and that he was just talking to her. I left finally after being told by this so called friend, that he would come and get me in about 30 minutes, but when that passed I had had enough. I left only to find my partner turning the corner outside in front of me with him. She texted me that she loved me, and that there was nothing at all going on. I still STUPIDLY did nothing other that to inflame the situation by texting back that they looked like a nice couple. What a stupid thing to say. I so so regret listening to this man. I so so regret not listening to my partner and going over to her, because, by the end of that evening he had managed somehow my other work colleagues told me, who were there and saw them - hold her hand and put his arm around her. We were going through a patch that could have been resolved, and the work colleague preyed on our vulnerability. She later told me that she had feelings for him and within days he was beginning to visit her at home and sleeping with her.. I am so angry, NOT with her, but with him and myself. I feel as if I have lost a huge part of my life that I'll never ever get back. I feel that I could have - stopped this. I am a waste of space.