I moved to a different state about three months ago to be with my now husband. I was happy at first and thought I could cope with all the changes of being away from everyone I know back in New York. But this past month a lot of horrible things have happened, and after going to college here for a month I haven't really made any friends. The college I'm going to is an offshoot of the main campus and is really small and not that many people my age, which I found surprising. Not having anyone I know here but my husband and realizing that I probably won't find anyone I can connect to at college has had me feeling very depressed lately. I'm constantly having nightmares and panic attacks and have a lack of energy to do things I know I need to get done. To make matters worse, I found out last month that his ex is pretending to be with him still on her online pages. Both the stress of coping with college and starting my first job, now combined with being lonely and dealing with his ex has me feeling hopeless, like nothing is ever going to be good again. I just feel so terrible about myself. I'll look at what my friends from back in NY are up to and just feel lonely, knowing I won't be able to see them again, or not for a very long time. I've found myself thinking of suicide lately, and if not that joining the military just so I can get out of this state and meet people, but my husband doesn't want me to do either. I feel stuck in this life, I'm happy to be with my husband but everything else just has me completely down. He's looking into moving to a different base if they have a position open, since he doesn't like it here either. But I guess his base is known as the "blackhole" of the air force, since it's hard to get out. I guess I'm just wondering if anyone has advice for how to deal with this loneliness and if anyone has been in this same situation where you gave up the life you wanted to be with someone.