I'm new to the group, and hope to find people I can talk to here. I don't really know what I'm allowed to talk about here. There's a lot of things in recent and far more distant past that make me want to crawl into a hole or worse. But I don't know what I can talk about, and what I can't, and this might end up being useless, but I need help, and calling people is out of the question, phones panic me, and I can't go to the hospital, I've tried that and it's one of the reasons I'm feeling this way this week. So yeah, this probably isn't going to help. But I've got to do something, or...or. I saw the rule about threats and whatnot, and don't want to make one of those, but I really need help.