So, like, I've talked about this a bit in another post but I basically rely a lot on escapism and things are getting worse.
Normally I know how tv shows are scheduled and when shows I like are coming back. Watching TV shows is a huge coping mechanism for me which got basically ripped away.
right now I'm looking for work/ waiting for an outpatient programme for my cerebral palsy to get approved so I'm pretty much home alone all day.
And waiting for the approvement/news on tv shows/etc pretty much makes me wanna kill myself because there's so much pain and I can't cope and I have no clue what the future (next week even!!) is gonna look like and it's freaking me out!
also feel super ashamed because really?? not knowing when tv show xyz is coming back is making you suicidal??? that's v pathetic
Normally I know how tv shows are scheduled and when shows I like are coming back. Watching TV shows is a huge coping mechanism for me which got basically ripped away.
right now I'm looking for work/ waiting for an outpatient programme for my cerebral palsy to get approved so I'm pretty much home alone all day.
And waiting for the approvement/news on tv shows/etc pretty much makes me wanna kill myself because there's so much pain and I can't cope and I have no clue what the future (next week even!!) is gonna look like and it's freaking me out!
also feel super ashamed because really?? not knowing when tv show xyz is coming back is making you suicidal??? that's v pathetic