We are struggling at the moment , some of us dont want to be here anymore But others do. We want to OD but the pills in the house are all put away some where by Ella's husband. We dont have a therapist or a physicist at the moment, just our regular dr She knows we are feeling low. We are on anti depressants they help a little but not enough. Maybe we can talk to her about up'ing them again but we arent sure she will do it or not. We feel so bad Flashbacks and memories just makes us feel so low Sarah .