Hi, This is my first post and not sure how to start. For the past few years I've been dealing with depression and loneliness and every year it seems to get progressively worse. This year has truly been the worst year of my life. Having no friends and family being ignorant to my feelings hurts like hell. I'm often comparing myself to people who I feel have more than I ever have and don't understand why I haven't experienced happiness like they have. I'm 33 and never had a meaningful relationship ever yet I see everyone have someone and I'm wondering what is wrong with me. Questions like I'm I ugly?, do I have a bad personality, or people just don't generally like me. I'm tired of feeling lonely and I'm tired of the self loathing. I just want a person just to understand what I'm going through without being judged. I'm hoping for anything that would be encouraging so I have reason to go on.