Does this happen to anyone else? I don't think about suicide nearly as much now, I've been high or drunk 24/7 since my gf left me in August. It's left me feeling numb, I was too depressed when she dumped me, so I started smoking weed again and drinking frequentley. I usually get drunk atleats every second day and I smoke weed multiple times a day. I also pop Adderall now, usually every second day or so. Does anyone else just feel numbed out after binging on drugs? I feel almost nihilistic, I don't care about much of anything at all.