Feeling Numb...

Have you ever felt numb, to the point that nothing in this world can pull you back away from the edge? When that final step looks so tempting? When there's no one who can (or will) bring you back?

I feel like that right now. There's no one to turn too, no one who wants to take the time to listen. I'm taking meds and seeing a dr., but it seems they can't reach me. Maybe I don't WANT to be reached. Maybe I'd rather take that last step and not have to worry about it.

Death means NOTHING to me...

 

Jesus

 

wow i can so relate it's unbelievable and words are so hard to come by too.

 

I write poems to help vent. Here's one...

The end is near
The countdown has begun
The demons in my head
Have almost won

Can't hold on
To what is mine
Losing my grip
Losing time

I can't believe
It's come to this
Falling further
Into my abyss

This is my life
My own private hell
Can't see the light
As far as I can tell

They're now at hand
Dtagging me in
So this is good-bye
From a battle that I didn't win

So when you think of me
Don't shed a tear
Think of how I was
And know that I'm still here

- Me

 

I know that numb feeling but don't act apon it as if it is the whole truth. It will not last forever. Stay with us.

A loving heart is the truest wisdom.
Charles Dickens

Beachboy x

 

Numbness is scary. In any way. When you can't feel your legs, that's scary. Even when your foot falls asleep and it takes longer than usual to wake it up. When you just can't 'feel' is the scariest of all. But just think of like it's just gone to sleep (like your foot). It just needs waking up. That you can do. It just takes a bit of time.