I'm feeling so much heavier. It's like I'm dragging my feet again. I can't push past it. I just found out that I basically failed all of my classes this semester. I was hoping, since I'm thinking of transferring to another college next year, that maybe I could do well. But no. Of course not. I'm just feeling hopeless. If I can't get a good education and a good job, what hope do I have? I'm going to end up just like my fucking dead beat dad and have to live on welfare for the rest of my life like my mom. I can't take it. It's really not worth all of the trouble and money. Nothing has ever gone well for me. I know that sounds dramatic, but I can feel it. It's like my plane crashed in the ocean. But I survived! However, I lost my leg. But I can still manage to tread water! Then the sharks come. It just never ends. Same shit. Different day. My new fucking motto.