I have been feeling suicidal after surviving alot of trauma in recent years and have had alot of rotten luck since New Years. I told my brother via email tonight i am contemplating suicide and he didnt respond, text or call me. My dad killed himself a few years ago. I have bipolar disorder and when my depression hits like this i often get suicidal. It's really dark right now. I have not gotten out of bed in one week. I am scared no one will miss me if i die. My mom and brother both know i am suicidal yet aren't even calling me. Which makes me feel worse...