I've found a memory card today. Was curious what's in there. I put a card to my laptop and started to check it. Things which I saw on it are terrible. It's all about my last 2 years. All the stuff I was doing with my friends and other people. Really heavy parties. Loads of alcohols, drugs and violence. All the conversations are really vulgar, sincere and very shocking. I even can't believe I was talking so many bad things. I just can't believe it!! It's a very horrible view. I feel really ashamed that i was that way. It's disgusting. I feel really bad about it. I'm burnt. I've wasted 4 years of my life doing nothing. Messing around with wrong people. Parting badly. I'm a worthless person which has nothing.