Today I saw a CPN for my recent troubles. I had no idea till I received a letter last week that I had been referred. Back in April when I went to A&E with suicidal feelings the mental health assessment nurse decided he thought CBT or some sort of therapy would be ideal for me. Ive been wondering why I hadnt had from the therapy services as I should have been referred back in April. The CPN told me today he therapy service had refused my referral because of a long history of self harming. I am fuming. One because I wouldnt exactly call it a long history more that I hadnt self harmed for years and startwd again but not too regular. I also have to be self harm free for three months before they will accept the referral. Im 6 weeks since I last harmed myself but I have calmed recently but can feel my mood dropping so anything can happen now. So now I have to see a CPN till they decide what to do with me. I likw the CPN i felt a connection with him straight away and told him a lot of things id never told any other health professional. He wants me to change my meds from fluoxetine to sertraline. This is because aswell as major depressive disorder he also thinks ive got generalised anxiety disorder and social anxiety disorder. He says sertraline helps anxiety issues whereas fluoxetine flares anxiety up. I am very pleased that i have the CPN. But the whole experience today has sent me into overderive. Im buzzing and very unsettled. I feel like I could do something stupid. I feel very impulsive. I feel like I could write an entire assignment today and i dont know if ai should. I cant take my mind of it and i dont know what to do.