*sigh* I don't even know how to explain how I'm feeling right now. It's like how it first felt before I started self harming. That tight feeling in my chest and not being able to really concentrate, that numb feeling that hurts at the same time. I hate it. I hate how I can feel numb and it can hurt at the same time. how my mind doesn't even race it just plods through the day in its own little world. It's my last therapy session next week, relapse prevention. It's funny in a way, because I nearly SH'd yesterday. I thought everything would be better now.