Everything that happens lately just makes me more and more depressed. I have been out with my best friends nearly the whole week and I still had a hard time enjoying myself. I see them only once a week normally so I was really excited when Spring Break came around. Normally they are pretty much the only people who can make me happy. I can't stop thinking about my grandma lately who passed away at the beginning Of this year. It just makes me so sad. I've started cutting daily, I've been thinking about suicide a lot lately. I can't go a single day without thinking about it. Stuff happening in the future doesn't even excite me anymore. And I start college in two months and its freaking me out..