I don't really know what's happening. It's like a feeling of so much anger and bitterness, mixed with wanting to burst out crying. And I don't know, its so frustrating, I can't be bothered to do anything anymore. I had to see the school counsellor because apparently my friends are worried. Which i want to go to get over my anxiety and shyness, but I just, I don't know how I feel about it. And I'm so angry, lazy I want to support my friends, but I feel like i'm just pissing them off with always being paranoid. I feel like I'm suffocating them, I don't talk to anyone about my feelings, I mean sometimes I have one friend who I sometimes talk to about it, but I don't want to bother her, plus she lives abroad. I guess i just wanted to rant, it doesn't really make sense. I'm just kind of looking for someone I don't know to talk to.