Some days I come on here and everything feels ok, it feels right, being here, like a big family, in a big family house with all its different rooms. Other days I feel like I'm on a different planet, like some kind of alien, looking at everyone else through a two way mirror, unseen, unheard. Today's one of those crappy days. And when it feels like that, it's like it's forever. As if it'd never been different and never will be. No reason, no reason at all. Just feel totally rubbish. Big time.