It's not a clear emotion as it's rarely the case for me. Mixed in the feelings soup is a lot of anger and stress but mostly paranoid anxiety. It's making breathing heavy as usual and I have this burning sensation in my stomach. I'm sitting at my desk and studying but I'm filled with this absolute feeling of sickness. I think about going out of the house but I don't feel like it. I'll end up laying in bed again like if I was really sick. I don't like being on the internet all the time it all feels so fake like my life is just some kind of story someone told me about but I'm not really interested in. Thinking about tomorrow being the same kind of gray is so frustrating but I don't want to look at past nor present neither. I know it will change once I get the chance to change my life but it will take years and I have this negative feeling like I might never get out of this self made prison of mind again.