hi
I have been going from one website to another at 3:30 in the morning trying to not feel alone. But nothing is taking the feeling away. My heart feels so deeply alone. I go to the store. And water my plants. I went to visit someone today at her store. And yet I am alone. Even with others, I am alone.
I just want to find a way to begin to learn how to love myself, as I love others. To find a way to fuse the fragmentation. So that the fragmented child parts of myself are not running the show. My heart aches to not be alone. And yet I am. So I am posting here. I could have chosen the depression area to post. But this area seems so much less isolated. And so I post here. It would be a great luxury to die. I long for the relief of being released from the pain, isolation and despair. I just want it to stop. I want the fear to stop. I want the pain to stop. It feels so hopeless. Thank you for listening :flowers: :rose:
I have been going from one website to another at 3:30 in the morning trying to not feel alone. But nothing is taking the feeling away. My heart feels so deeply alone. I go to the store. And water my plants. I went to visit someone today at her store. And yet I am alone. Even with others, I am alone.
I just want to find a way to begin to learn how to love myself, as I love others. To find a way to fuse the fragmentation. So that the fragmented child parts of myself are not running the show. My heart aches to not be alone. And yet I am. So I am posting here. I could have chosen the depression area to post. But this area seems so much less isolated. And so I post here. It would be a great luxury to die. I long for the relief of being released from the pain, isolation and despair. I just want it to stop. I want the fear to stop. I want the pain to stop. It feels so hopeless. Thank you for listening :flowers: :rose:
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