It does help to know there are people who understand. Although, I am saddened that there are so many of you who also suffer from trauma. This has taken so many yrs of my life, and I am only 35. I have lost alot because of trauma, my career, trust, faith, even my soul. I look in the mirror and see eyes with no soul. Just dead inside.
When ex said he would make sure no else would have me, he certainly succeeded. He still has power over me, in my sleep in my life. I hate him!!!! I want him out of my mind!!! Just not sure how to do that. He terrorized me for so long. And that was just me ex-bg, I cant even begin to mention what happened when I was younger.
How do I not jump when I hear a noise, or someone come up from behind? How do I trust another person, let alone another man? Just so damn hard