Sometimes life is hard. People make choices we wish they wouldn't make. Are there choices that you can make? Can you go to counseling? I always felt alone, rejected, unworthy, helpless, unwanted. I did finally find a counselor, and he listened while I talked through all my stuff. Then I went through DBT. It was worth it for me. I learned how to let my overwhelming negative emotions go. I agree with a PP. You have a purpose and a place because God created you. He made you beautiful because there is only one of you. You can reach out to others from your experiences and help them through the darkness. I will say that it is painful to heal, but it is worth every minute of it because it was painful being stuck in a dark emotional place, too. With healing there is hope and growth and knowing that even if things are not great now, they can change and get better. Please take the time for yourself. Give yours the chance to heal. Praying for you.