Lately I have attempted committing suicide multiple times within the last 3 days but something always makes me stop myself of snap out of it. I get this numb feeling and it's overwhelming, overpowering almost and I can't control it. I have a boyfriend of almost a year, he has been nothing but wonderful and helpful with this whole situation. He's such a good guy and he loves me and I love him, my family is great, they love me and care about me immensely, my friends are amazing people too and school has been good. Recently, I turned down going to my dream university that I had been wanting to go to for over 4 years to stay in the university in my hometown with my boyfriend. I feel like maybe staying up here could have triggered feelings of feeling trapped and as if I am never going to get out of this place. I don't think that's enough reason to feel suicidal though, I feel so weak, I don't understand. I'm not depressed, I'm just sad and unhappy. Every now and then throughout the day I get this overwhelming feeling of just wanting to leave. I don't think about anything except leaving and not having to deal with this. I know it's selfish and maybe stupid but I don't know what else to do. I just want to stop feeling like this so I can move on with my life and not ruin my relationship. That's it. Please help.