I have had a rough new year....i hate my family because they constantly hurt me emotionally, i no longer have a job, and my goal to return to school this semester isn't happening. and to top it off tonight, i am hurting so bad over my soon to be three year rejection from a girl i liked. pretty fucked up i know. i don't want to do this anymore...next week is my birthday and i am scared as shit to keep living with all of this pain. o feel really trapped right now.