I live in a constant state of loneliness. I haven't any real friends since middle-school and all my friends haven't really. The computer and video games have been pratically my entire life all this time and all I want anymore are friends. I'm a really smart kid and I know I can get over my issues if someone would give me the chance. I have a couple people I can turn to but it's not like we're great friends and I'm just worried. Could someone just talk to me and ask me questions or something? i'm just freaking out and if I can calm down later I think I can explain more. I really want to live but I don't know how much longer I can deal with pain alone.