I am feeling so down i feel i want to attempt again. I know it's wrong but i'm in so much pain physically and mentally that i can't cope anymore. I also feel so alone sat in chat really wanting to say i need help but everyone enjoying themselves so much i didn't want to spoil it. I can't sleep as pain so bad which makes my brain work overtime. I have tried the helplines and they don't seem bothered bf is asleep so can't tell him which leaves me with one option and although i know ppl care and would miss me they aren't there when i need them most.