Feeling suicidal

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by nonamez, Sep 11, 2011.

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  1. nonamez

    nonamez New Member

    Well yeah I am feeling suicidal,
    I just completed my ALevels in the UK and
    got my results about 2 weeks ago. I didn't do
    as well as I expected.
    I literally worked so so so hard and at the end
    of it I didn't achieve the grades I needed to
    get into the medicine course at University.
    The problem is all I've ever wanted to be was
    a doctor and I tried soso hard and just didn't
    make it. In the 2 years it took to do my
    alevels every single failure has just upset me
    more and more and now I really don't see the
    point in life.
    Being a doctor means everything to me. The
    reason being, I lost quite a close friend just
    before I started alevel course and he committed
    suicide. This really upset me and I've talked
    about his death to my girlfriend at the time
    and still my girlfriend for over a year. I know
    that all I've wanted to do since that point is I
    wanted to be a doctor to help kids who feel
    like that.
    I turned 18 a few months back and I have felt
    this feeling ever since I realised I can't do
    medicine. Its all I want to do, I've asked
    universities to accept me up to the point of
    begging but I understand that it will never
    My parents are v.supportive and told me to
    keep at it and as I asked them I told them
    make sure I stay in the house and just keep
    working till I get there. But realistically from
    the 2/3 weeks ago I got my results I know it
    will never happen and I just don't know what
    is the point in living this life when I am just
    Idk why I am posting on here I just feel like I
    need someone to talk to:/
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Dam hun you can try again you are only 18 so young hun You have written it once so now know what to be expected okay you keep trying keep studying it is possible hun in time you will learn and pass those test don't give up okay keep your dream alive hugs
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