I don't know if anyone recognises people in pain, tears that continually run down my cheeks are not a sign. I suppose that I don't really want to respond anymore as I am not eating anything now and have sort of buried myself away in the spare room. My husband doesn't say goodbye to me and neither does my daughter. I just sleep a bit under the washing pile and gradually will fall asleep. I'll just go away. I think a bit about my brother in law who<Mod Edit :Methods> a couple of years ago. His torment is finally over. My mother and sister managed to gradually chip away at him,like my father did to my half brother who <Mod Edit:Methods> I've feel like I've clung on enough. Maybe there are souls out there that can move on and just leave people behind and start again...I have tried....but again it hasn't worked. I've had drug therapy, CBT and other counselling. If you are trying as had as you can and still people at telling you you are useless then I suppose you have no choice but to concede the point that you are.