Sigh.. Im just too numb somtimes.. Im not sure were exactly to post this thread cuz mostly this site deals with suicide.. But.. Somtimes I get so numb I just wana see somthing morbid.. or anything.. just to wake myself up.. Arg.. Its so Annoying.. Then I feel bad cuz Im laughing at stuff playing through my head.. and feel sick and terrible and just think Im a homicidal maniac.. Even tho Ive never hurt anyone physically... And then It can turn into self harm thinking! Arg.. does anyone else seem to get this way? Its like.. I re-play things Ive seen happen to people.. sigh.. Someone wake me up from these imagined morbid images!!