August has ended for me with a $114 bill from my ex for additional childcare-related expenses. Sometimes it feels like my existence has been reduced to being nothing more than an ATM for her. I've been working hard to move on, but life just feels like endless work without joy or reward. It's difficult not to feel resentful when I know she's living exactly the life she wants with her girlfriend. Meanwhile, I am so lonely, and I can't even get a date (i.e. no dates in August). I did finally go to a singles event in August, but there were only a few women, and I didn't really talk to anyone. A few days later, the event host called to follow up on what I thought of the event, and she suggested that I should subscribe to their matchmaking service. At nearly $500, it's a bit expensive, but it runs for three years. I definitely find the concept intriguing. I feel like I could be stuck in this empty rut indefinitely unless I try something different, but would the experience of a professional matchmaking service be much better than the non-existent experience I'm currently having with regular online dating? I am so tired of living this meaningless life that I currently have, but I just don't know what to do.