I just feel like there's so much wrong with me. I have too many hurtles to overcome. Serious Depression, leading to unreliability at jobs and friends and family. I'm frustrating to be around Hearing Problems – I can't hear what people say in situations where they don't speak clearly above the ambient background noise. Much worse than most people. I can't hear in malls, over cell phones, clubs. Dyslexia – I can't spell anything and need spell check around at all times. Slowness – I'm very slow at anything I do, thinking, speech, typing, writing. Asbergers syndrome – I have problems in many social situations. I'm unable to really hold conversations about frivolous things like the weather. Not that I don't want too, just that I never know what to say. I have problems with eye contact and being assertive inside of group chat situations. No official training or education. Shotty resume with lots of blanks. Bad economy. I know I'm focusing on the bad things right now. I'm overwhelmed with them. I just want to give up. I've been semi seriously considering suicide again. I'm considering just leaving and going to some home or whatever and giving up on ever being a functioning asset of society. I feel like I have no one to turn too. I have one friend that I don't want to talk to any more because she is an ex of mine and things are just too complicated. My family is frustrated with me and are starting to feel like I'm a drain on them. I feel like they know what's going on but just feel helpless and frustrated and angry at me. In fact my father explicitly said that to me a few days ago. I'm 27, with no prospects. I just want this misery to end.