i don't know what else to do. nothing ever works out. no matter what i try or what i do to get ahead i get thrown or kicked 10 feet further back than where i started. for almost 2 years now i've been trying on my own to get on my feet, to regain my life after an 8 year abusive relationship. but there isn't any help apparently. and its all up to me. and i just can't do it.... i'm tired of trying, tired of fighting...it just keeps getting worse and worse.