I'm feeling very suicidal today. Stressed. Anxious about an upcoming test in school. For the last month I've felt very suicidal. I was admitted to the hospital on the 7th of this month and was released on the 11th. They changed my meds but I am still very suicidal. I feel like I need to be in the hospital again. My mom is staying with me until the 26th of this month. I feel so awful. I have plenty to live for but I'm not feeling it. I just feel miserable. I have virtually no will to live. I just don't know what to do. The doctors tell me to give the new medication time to work. I don't know that I have that much time. I'm now on 30 mg of Remeron (mirtazipine) and they increased my Seroquel (quetiapine) to 300 mg. I also have some Ambien to help me sleep at night or I'll never sleep. I didn't feel suicidal until the last month or so of taking Prozac. Anyway, positive self-talk has not been very helpful. I thought that having my mom here with me would make me feel better... I'm drowning. I feel every minute go by, and it feels like torture. Don't know what to do.