I don't even know where to start, but am going to keep this brief (which is unusual for me). I'm feeling terribly burnt out right now. Saw my pdoc this morning, and tears came to my eyes while in his office. He offered to help me to go the place I was just released from a month ago - if I feel I need it - again. He can't order me to be there because I'm not an imanant threat to myself or anyone else atm, but he can see the pressure is mounting again. This would be my 5th time there in 11mon (which also disturbs me!). It's similar to a hospital by way of getting therapy there and med adjustments, but it's not a locked down place. They also encourage people to keep with their regular appts and things going on as much as possible. They allow pass time to do such things. I'm burnt out with Dr's, therapy, meds (and all that goes along with all that), as well as everything else I'm contending with including an anniversary approaching, a civil court matter I'm dealing with (which brings up a totally different trauma for me), and a number of other things. Admittedly, I'm overwhelmed; it all just feels like too much. My pdoc isn't aware that I'm burnt out on dealing with Dr's, therapy, and meds, though, but he's aware of the rest. Just not sure how much longer I can keep holding out. It's been becoming much more of a struggle to do.