Am I tough case? For the longest time I've felt depressed and suicidal. My brain has been auto-pilot for the past 12 years. From my mom calling me names like "f****t", to moving around a lot, skipping school, having no friends or love, I've become closed off from the world. I have no motivation to do anything and my parents are too selfish and only see me as a child still when I'm not a teen anymore. I've got a gun locked up downstairs. I really just need some help right now. How can I calm myself down if I feel so trapped?