i am holding back from harming for many days but i think i need to give in now soon. i try to talk to people but anything i feel im told its "not that bad" or they can relate, when that is not the truth. i dont know how better to explain but being told "i understand" is making feelings worse. played down like it is nothing. if anyone english or japanese uses msn messenger.. i want to speak to anyone after it because i will feel better then.