Well, I finally did it. I told my husband that I've had enough and I don't want to be with him. I guess I was secretly hoping that he didn't mean all of the mean things he says to me, and that he would try to stop me, but he didn't. He doesn't care. How can I love someone who treats me this badly so much and he doesn't even care to lose me?!?!? Then I read in his phone stuff I never should have read. He honestly thinks this poorly of me. It's not just stuff he says to be crule or because he's angry. Maybe it's all true. I am worthless. Maybe he's right, it isn't abuse if it's the truth. I'm so stupid, I actually thought he wouldn't want to lose me. Just another thing to add to the list of bad qualities I've never wanted to die more in my life.