I was going to write a longer post, but fuck it. I don't even care anymore. The short version: School started today. It sucks and makes me want to die. My grandmother died today. I'm completely devastated. I see less and less hope and happiness in the world by the day and the minute. And the thought of death's loving embrace becomes more comforting. I just don't know what to do with myself. I'm getting closer to the edge, and I don't even know if I want to back away from it.