I try to avoid these feelings as much as possible but I can't handle it. I feel like a complete failure. Every time I look at my parents, I feel like I've failed them completely. I feel worthless and like my life isn't worth living because I'm too stupid to be successful in the future. Everything is going crazy and I can't take it anymore. Music usually helps, but lately it hasn't been helping much at all. I don't know what to do. I cut myself to keep away the emotional pain but it doesn't help anymore either. But I keep doing it. So now I feel like I have an addiction too. And sometimes when my parents look at me, it seems like they are thinking I was a mistake. That's what I think. I think I was a mistake. I don't think I should have been born because my life is pointless now. I hate feeling this way, but I can't help it. I don't know what to do anymore.