Feeling ....

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by *dilligaf*, Sep 20, 2007.

  1. *dilligaf*

    *dilligaf* Staff Alumni

    I woke up in such a strange mood. I want to cry. Over nothing. Cry just for the sake of it. I’ve got a headache. I’m tired. Grumpy. I don’t want to get out of bed. I keep pulling the covers back over my head, hoping the world will disappear while I’m hiding. Then when I look up, unsurprisingly, the world is still there.

    I got triggered last night by a lot of stuff, and then had some horrible dreams. I want to sleep, but I don’t want to see those things again.

    I want to cry, but I don’t want to give in.

    I want to go to the shops to get out of the house, but I don’t want to be seen.

    I want to go buy some pills, but I don’t want to hurt her.

    I want to hibernate, but the world wont disappear.

    I want to not be here, but I am.
  2. danni

    danni Chat Buddy

    :hug: sam
  3. chewie93

    chewie93 Member

    I'm so sorry, Sam. I've been there. There's nothing "giving in" about crying. *hug*