when i think back to how i used to be when i started self harming, i was well aware of what i was doing to myself. i knew i was hurting myself. i knew what i felt. but now, it no longer feels like self harm, it jst feels like me. like this is something that is just part of my personality like the music i listen to etc. sometimes i cut without realising what ive done until after. its comforting now. i feel weird when i dont cut. like i NEED it. im actually craving it. im not here for advice on how to stop cutting or anything. im just wondering if anyone can relate to that?