Trying to hold on until tomorrow to see the psychiatrist, just over 24hrs to wait. :cry: Not sure how i'm going to make it. Struggling and crying a lot. Really want everything to disappear, well it would be nice if I just didn't exist. I hate feeling this way. Hard not to give into urges. Feeling really bad today, suicidal, keep thinking if I just self harm I might make it. I know that's an idiot thought but it's helped in the past to an extent. No idea what I should be doing anymore.