Feels like one day to long

[Fleury Dragon]

Trying to hold on until tomorrow to see the psychiatrist, just over 24hrs to wait. :cry: Not sure how i'm going to make it. Struggling and crying a lot. Really want everything to disappear, well it would be nice if I just didn't exist. I hate feeling this way. Hard not to give into urges. Feeling really bad today, suicidal, keep thinking if I just self harm I might make it. I know that's an idiot thought but it's helped in the past to an extent. No idea what I should be doing anymore.

 

[demuredawn]

hi fleurise hon,

i am so sorry you hurt so bad. si isn't an idiot thought, its an illness thought tho. si is very much an addiction... and will only make your depression more intense when the feelings of guilt come along... i hope the suggestions i gave you in chat about watching a movie or playing a mindless game are helpful... you are stronger than you think and i believe you can make it through, your psychiatrist will make sure you receive the help you need... just take it minute by minute