people have caled me crazy just by the unusual ways i behave in various setings and i m sure many have thought i have a couple of screws loose , one of my close friends in particular has repeatedly said he thinks i am actualy insane although i know from introspection on my part that we just have diferent personalities and ways of seeing the world . i have always interpreted my behaviour to be derived from a deep soul-searching and questioning of my place in the world .
because of often being caled a nut or loopy , even if said in a playful maner (for i am very receptive to be being playful in return about the subject ) i have been very interested in mental ilneses and abnormal psychology etc and , now i have awarenes of such things i identify various symptoms within myself and am unsure if i am just taking this persona on as another role that my social ties have been coercing me into acepting and whether i have been complying subconsciously . these past couple of months have seen a surfacing of quite eratic oposites of emotion and energy levels , self harming etc . the best i can explain is that it feels like a fuse has blown in my delicate brain circuitry .
of course teling myself i am feigning symptoms doesn t make me feel very good . to ad there is a part of me that has been formaly diagnosed as an 'abnormality' in me in the past , tourete s syndrome and i understand it has high comorbity with other things but worse , my belief that the human mind can be remarkable in its variety and versitality leads me to think that mental disorders simply do not exist , in turn invalidating myself further .
i suspect i m just a litle anxious and have over thought the subject . nevertheles interested in your thoughts on this , feigning symptoms vs real symptoms , absorbing acusations of crazines from people , becoming loopier as a result etc . i understand that a human s desire to be acepted no mater what is a powerful one . ironicaly it makes me feel even more 'nuts' to disregard public opinion and do my own thaaang .
peace and love my felow planetary travelers of the mind ! :hiding::weee:
because of often being caled a nut or loopy , even if said in a playful maner (for i am very receptive to be being playful in return about the subject ) i have been very interested in mental ilneses and abnormal psychology etc and , now i have awarenes of such things i identify various symptoms within myself and am unsure if i am just taking this persona on as another role that my social ties have been coercing me into acepting and whether i have been complying subconsciously . these past couple of months have seen a surfacing of quite eratic oposites of emotion and energy levels , self harming etc . the best i can explain is that it feels like a fuse has blown in my delicate brain circuitry .
of course teling myself i am feigning symptoms doesn t make me feel very good . to ad there is a part of me that has been formaly diagnosed as an 'abnormality' in me in the past , tourete s syndrome and i understand it has high comorbity with other things but worse , my belief that the human mind can be remarkable in its variety and versitality leads me to think that mental disorders simply do not exist , in turn invalidating myself further .
i suspect i m just a litle anxious and have over thought the subject . nevertheles interested in your thoughts on this , feigning symptoms vs real symptoms , absorbing acusations of crazines from people , becoming loopier as a result etc . i understand that a human s desire to be acepted no mater what is a powerful one . ironicaly it makes me feel even more 'nuts' to disregard public opinion and do my own thaaang .
peace and love my felow planetary travelers of the mind ! :hiding::weee: