Well last week i had a hard time trying to getting "undepressed" (if that is a word) and i went to the doc and felt great afterward. She gave me seroquel and was told to come in the following monday. Well i have been taking the prescribed 300mg dose and its doing nothing. i still have my suicidal thoughts and extreme thoughts of homicide. I really, REALLY want to kill someone. i know that might sound wierd but its the truth. I envy the kid in Omaha, Ne that killed eight people in the mall and wish that it was me instead of him. Everytime i hear on the news that someone was murdered or committed suicide i wish i was that person. I CAN'T get it out of my head. I've tried to keep relaxed but those thoughts keep coming up........ i have no plans for a suicide attempt but i feel its eminent. I don't wanna tell my "pill pusher" aka my doctor because all they will do is put me in the looney bin for a couple of days. I feel that the only way to cure this urge is to actually commit a violent crime... <Mod Edit: Encouraging illegal activity> I just did the Burns Depression checklist and my score was severe depression. I also slept 17 hours last night and into today. went to bed at 11pm and woke up around 5pm the following day. The sleep was awesome but its not natural... ~~edit~~ I'm also beginning to shut everybody i know out of my life. The reasons i have for doing this are trivial but whatever.