Last night I burned myself first time in two months. Seems to have been a spark for my mood to nosedive. Next step suicidal ideation? Feel so useless in trying to help suicidal friends. All I can do on a forum is write to the person and then wait and hope. My life is lived alone except for appointments and calling my parents. Feel like I am looking a few feet away from a cliff just a few more steps and I will be at the edge. I am so numb now can not really fight this off. All I want to do is go to bed and forget about everything.