I know I shouldn't post, so I'm sorry for that, I'm just not sure what to do. I have a physical problem at the moment for that could kill me (seriously, very physically depleted right now). I'm trying very hard to fight it. However, with my mental health problems being as they are, and living with constant suicide ideation (at very best) and needing to know it's a choice to live, I'm struggling. My mental health seems to be preventing me from fighting my physical health, so my vague mental health stability is wobbly, but I'm getting iller so feeling physically worse which makes me feel mentally worse, but when I try and fight, I end up feeling even worse. It's a vicious cycle, but I really want to try to fight this. I guess I need to, but if I fight as hard as I should, I run the very real risk of killing myself anyway through mental health problems which defeats the object. I've tried so hard to fight my mental health problems and this is really knocking everything. does anyone have any advice? Or any similar circumstances that they have been through? Sorry.