My depression was killing me. I saw no hope at all in the future, so with no hope at all with the future, i got depressed further, when i got depressed further, i even felt worse on the no hope situation, then by feeling even worse, i got even more depressed. And it came to a point where I dont even have any negative thoughts and I feel severely depressed (like the past few days). Why does fate has to make us victims? many things happen beyond my control and I have to end up paying the price. Why why why? Everyday is the same thing. same thing over and over again. It has been a few months since I fell into suicidal depression. I see no end of the tunnel and maybe this time it's for final. Then yesterday, everything seems to go wrong. everything that I do went wrong and everything which I did my best also went wrong beyond my control. Suddenly I snapped. I smashed my PC with my fist and kept on smashing it. It a fit of anger, I shouted out all the sadness in me and all the despair and hopeless I have in me to my partner. I felt my mood lift and became my original self again. I felt my feelings of futile , hopelessness gone etc and I became very very angry and alert as compared with my state of psychomotor retardation which makes me move in slow-motion and my zombie-like mind. I dunno if it may work for some of you who became depressed because of repressed thoughts / feelings. Maybe u can try letting it all out on anger. It made me feel better. of course, I do also know that my lifted mood may only be temporary due to the artificial lift by anger but it makes me feel normal for half a day. so instead of being a victim, let FUCK this world and be our self .