My triggers, that is to say, the things that send me down deeper into my depression and put back on the suicidal path are terrible demons. Paranoia Bad News Financial Stress (mainly with my car and the finance company) Projections-This is a huge demon for me. I tend to be a negative thinking person. Why not? I have had so much crap thrown at me all my life. So I tend to look at a situation and think the worse. For example, this Friday and Saturday, it's supposed to be around 80 degrees. Most people would go woohoo!!!! My mind says, well...you live in a 3rd floor apartment with no air. It's going to be hot as blazes. How am I going to live thru that, I think. Keeping with this thought process, I grew up without Air conditioning, I should be able to handle this. But my mind is ill. I suffer from a deep manic depression. So the reason I referred to my triggers as demons, is that for most people, those types of stresses are manageable. For me...not so much. And there in lies the struggle. The constant struggle is to control and manage those triggers. And that aint easy. Some days, most days, it feels like I am on a high wire balancing 5000 feet in the air with no net. And sometimes I get a gust of wind! Don't know why, exactly, just thought I would share that with the class.