All I can think about is cutting recently, it seems to be the only next step that is reachable. Certain thoughts trigger it but mainly my family's actions towards me, I am invisible to them yet when they want me to be visible I am an oral punching bag to take their aggression out on. My mum only interacts with me when she wants chores doing and I receive no thankfulness from her whatsoever. I don't talk to my mum because every conversation I have with her results in an argument. But it's my mum's partner who encourages it, he plots ideas into my mum's head that aren't true and to make me look wrong. I hate living in this house, I am trapped and there is no way out. And that's when cutting seems the best relief. I can't concentrate on my education let alone friendships because my family make me feel so low and unworthy plus I live an extreme distance from any social life I could have. I feel like I have 2 options: continue with life and continue cutting to relieve the pain for now or end all of the pain in me by ending my life. The second option is so tempting and seems so satisfying but I can't bring myself to actually do it, as shallow as this sounds I want my family to be hurt due to my death to prove how much they have hurt me and hopefully it will make them realise that our family is not a family. Please can someone advise me I don't know what to do anymore everything is hopeless.